Broken Person Inside

What a strange illusion it is to suppose that beauty is goodness.

2009-11-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

Well finally after damn long blogging again.
I just dont know why but i felt like typing shit out.
Cant seem to do well in RP, dont know wad the hell i am good in anyways ???
maybe nth rite !!

Today was kinda boring as always. did not do much.
same routine everyday, school home and the same again the next day.
Life is damn mono tone.

needs a better DJ to mix-up my life.
Where is DJ Genesis when you need him huh ??
lols - probably drunk behind the set !!! hahaha

you see i really talk shit and crap here !! hahahaha
alrites gonna sleep soon !!
have fun and enjoy the rest of the nite

suffering Alone

2009-07-26T04:20:00.003+08:00

i am left here alone to cry all alone to myself .... i dont really know how i can bother ti even listen to myself .... i am starting to hate myself more and more now a days.

i dont know if its because of you or not but it really hurts!
i dont know what i am going through now .... love perhaps ??
i cant seem to forget all the things that have happened ...
yes i was angry ... but not at you .... its cos i was the one who created such a sitiuation
now i feel like shit ....
not being able to see you or hear ur voice makes me go kuku .... hahaha
now i know its time to forget everything .... me and u will never be possible ... at all !!

now i am just too down to write anymore .... running out of tissues soon !! lols

CRYBABY !

2009-05-26T15:36:00.001+08:00

lols had to remoive the pic that was here ... hahaha

2009-05-25T08:43:00.000+08:00

dresses

2009-05-23T17:47:00.003+08:00

fucked up day

2009-03-28T07:51:00.002+08:00

well my day stared out quite well ... helpped a friend buy a buy ... got all the dealings done !!
after that went to katong for left 4 dead ...!! played till 1230 i think ...lols
had a fun time ....
after that met nesh at 52. drank beer and than proceeded to pasir ris town park .... from theer went to some carpark near downtown east there which is connected to pasir ris park ....
drank somemore ....

cos of me the whole group had a fucking big misunderstanding ...
when i came home i found out that my parents had a fucking fight ... like wtf !!
i am now like fucking pissed off ...
my life is really like a fucking drama series playing on a 24hr channel ...
i am slowly going crazy .... just waiting for the time that i snap ..
than i wonder what will happen to me ... ??
pls come for my funneral ok !!
lols hhahaha
and i want to be barried with a bottle of louis the 13 !!! tell my dad and it will happen ... if he does not belive show him this blog post !!
hahaha
lols

lets see what happens when i wake up later on huh ...!! lols
well its a good morning to u guys and good nite to me ...!!! hahaha
sayunara !!

EthaN

dead blog

2009-03-22T12:33:00.002+08:00

Again i find my blog dead .... !!

well lifes been fun some days and boring on others ...
anyways schools gonna start soon !! cant wait !!
really, 1 and a half years of not doing anything i can die .... lols

the only things keeping me alive is my music and well some of my friends !
speaking of friends i feel that things have gone from good to bad to worst ..
things are not the same anymore ....
i guess we are back to the same old people again ...
time tells many things abt everyone ... its just if you want to listen or not

but well i cant be bothered about all of this cos i dun need you guys to live nor do u need me to live
but still we do need each other when in need of companionship.To lend a shoulder to cry on, spend time laughing, joking and such !!

well thats all i have for now ....
EthaN

2009-01-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

All my life i have prayed for someone like you and i thank god that i finally found you.
And i hope that you feel the same way too. Yes i pray that you will love me too !!

well i guess this song applies to me but the sad part is that it will never happen.
Why is that all the girls that i like never seem to share the same feelings as i do ??

Am i cursed or wad ?? lols is there something wrong with me ??

A Rose With Velvet Petels, A Diamond Bud And A Golden Stalk, Something So Valueble And Rare

drowning in sadness

2009-01-04T23:21:00.003+08:00

fuck .... i am sliwly losing myself ! dunno wad i have been doing the past few days !

my life is getting from bad to worst.
i just found out that my mums got some blood disorder
although she looks fine on the outside i know that she really is not

something happened last nite which i admitt was my fault.
u are right. i am an idiot.
can never do anything right.
i am slowly losing the people that i really love
wad is happening ??

now i just feel like running away from my problems again

WarCraft

2008-12-18T04:27:00.003+08:00

my cousin called me and asked me to go to doby ghout to play DOTA with the other guys from church.so i met him at pasir ris interchange and took mrt there ... played till 10:15. left for home.

now i am going crazy.

Mr Lonely

2008-12-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

yst day nite was fun ... drinking does not bond us tgt but jusst lets us enjoy each others company
omg was freaking high yst lar ... dun belive that i was not drunk ... ok thats a good way to go ... hahha

well now i can say that i am offically Mr Lonely
cos i have nobody
to go watch twilight with
and that sucks big time .... lols

changing my playlist to all emo songs about being lonely
hahaha
just to add to the dramatic effect you know ....lols
hahahha

Ethan is going CRAZY

Finally done painting

2008-12-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

OMG ..... thank god the painting is finally done !
Thanks guys for helping me out today ...
thanks to the girls for the company and making me into ur artwork !! hahaha

ok well things are getting more and more boring in my life when i dun have a phone !
dunno how i have lived for so long without a phone ... hahaha

somethings said are true and somethings done a fake so dont just take them as they are
when someone says smt check it up and if someone does smt try looking for a deeper meaning
or a motive.

LOVE REMINDS YOU OF WHAT MAKES YOU SPECIAL AND WHY HE/SHE LOVES YOU FOR THUS LOVING HIM/HER EVEN MORE.

OMG !

2008-12-13T18:43:00.003+08:00

ok i just realised smt ....
my previous post title does not have any link to wad i typed ..
effects of alcohol.

ok well i just finished painting my house. feeling damn tired ....
dunno if i should go meet my friends or just stay at home ??
well see later how lar ... lols

Now my house looks so much better .... hahaha and i am all covered in paint.
will upload the pics taken at chirs place later ....
thats all for now ....

painted my house

2008-12-13T05:27:00.003+08:00

hey guys ... now at chris place blogging

kinda high on the wine... still got a bottle of vodka left !
dunno wads gonna happen in the next 1/2 hour so before i KO
i just wanna post this blog ...

all i have to say is tat girl i am missing you alot ....
i really dunno how i have lived all this while without you this whole while ??
alcohol can really make you seem in heaven.
i feel happy

than again i remember tha you are indeed far away from you...
like that princess locked away in the tower .... haha
how am i ever gonna reach you ... are you really lost to me for all eternty ??
i hope not !! love is just a wy to discribe a way of feeling towards a person .
well hats how i feel towards you....

when am i gona see you next ?
i cant wait ... just a longing girl

hahaha sound like i am dreaming already huh ... lols
well take care
fet like typing sometings off my chest and i feel better ...

miss you too much to express in words....
you will know soon i guess ...

The reason why

2008-12-11T07:53:00.003+08:00

hey guys finally back.
well today i finally understood what
the bigger reason for me just sitting
and drinking in clubs is.

well everytime i drink i think of you.
and i dun see myself with you and just gets depressing
my glass is my company and my friends just add to the effect.

when i am scared i think of the times we spent and i feel safe
when there is something to overcome, i think of you
and i push myself to achive.

In simpler terms you are my reason to live and succeed in my life
Girl i will never know when you will realise this but i do hope that some day you will
my heart still lingers for your LOVE
my hand waits for your touch
and my mind spends its days just thinking of you

malaysia and sentosa and pasir ris park ???

2008-11-30T07:22:00.001+08:00

Wow .... friday night went to malaysia again
had supper again. coming back was a little jam lar
reached home around 4am and i could not sleep,
watched movies online and stayed up all the way.
Raj called me around 830 am and asked wad was the plans
He came over to my place around 930.

Met iman and went to elias mall and met wan and chris there
after that chris drove us to sentosa. and we were there till 730pm
came back home around 930pm had A&W for dinner and met the guys again
went to collect the bottles and proceeded to pasir ris park.Met ash and the others.
drank 3 bottles and came home around 710 am..

Friday i woke up at 5pm and i am gonna sleep on sunday 730am.
total hours awake = 34 hours

LOLS ... hahaha

ok well gonna sleep now so maybe later might blogg again lar .
good night ...

malaysia anyone ??

2008-11-27T04:12:00.003+08:00

hey guys .....
been awhike since my last post

well today was fun. woke up around 3:30
meet satha hyqel and raj ard 4:00
went to elias mall had lunch and went for a walk ard pasir ris park
met chris and slacked.
came home around 7:30 for dinner and followed my parents to the pasar malam'
bought takoyaki balls !!!! i love it man !!!
met the guys back at st 52 .
chris wanted to go to johor so well all went home got our passports and left.
had supper and bought ciggs and bubble gum !!
came back around 3:00 AM and slacked for an hour.

well gonna sleep now .... so good nites

miss my baby
when will i see you again my love ?

deep suffering running thru my vains
as cold as ice
as pain as thorns
and as lethel as a bomb
ITS THE END OF ME

2008-11-22T14:45:00.002+08:00

The weeks going fine ...
cant really remember wad i did though ..... i think i am really having STM
LOLS .... !! hahaha

yst met nesh as he booked up from camp. Went drinking with ash nesh iman raj and a few more people.
nice time .... really enjoyed time spent with brothers ..... hahaha
came home at 740 am .... made breakfast and wanted to blog but everyine in the house started to wake up. since my cousins were staying over at my place my dad asked me to go buy breakfast for them.
walked to elias mall and came home and knocked out untill 3pm.
lols .... well its kinda fun being able to handle my alcohol and also seeing the sun rise
hahahahahaha

well i got alot of things to do for my aunts birthday party so will be stopping here .... hahaha

BBQ

2008-11-15T07:04:00.002+08:00

the last minute bbq turned out welll ... the only thing was that i was not thast good of a host to my friends. i wish that i could have done better !!!

after that when to pasir ris park and met ash and the other guys. drank somemore.
whent for a walk with fizal and had a FUN time ... for those ppl that know wad happened lar ... haha .....

well everything is ok .... so till next time ..
GOOD NIGHT
gonna sleep now ... haahaha
sweet dreams !

ETHAN

I wanna be in love

2008-11-04T19:34:00.002+08:00

When you look at me i start to blush
and all that i can say is you and us
oh baby im so afraid to be in love
with you,
with you...

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you
just you

when stars are falling dark
will light the way
will hit the ground and fall
into the shade
ill light the night with fire
and run away (with you)
with you

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you

i wanna be in love with you
i wanna be in love (i wanna be in love)
i wanna be in love with you
i wanna be in love (i wanna be in love)

i wanna be in love with you...i wanna be in love with only you

i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you

just you
i wanna be
just you yeah

Gay Clubs And Malay Wedding

2008-11-02T21:40:00.002+08:00

on Friday went to city plaza for a drink. after that proceeded to another club near boat quay and stayed there for like 10 mins and than the whole group of us left to another club. Taboo, its a gay club but damn the girls were hot ...!! haha
i am not gay alright ...!! haha

after the club closed chris drove us to eat dim sum. Proceeded home after supper.

saturday was a bore ! woke up at 2pm and left to church ard 3pm
after church went for depavali visiting.
came home and met iman and chris.

sunday was tiring !
did not go to church !
got ready for a malay wedding and left home ard 2pm
left the wedding ard 330pm and came back home.
helped my dad to wash car and met satha to take down some notes for tmls paper.

well no ones online now .... getting bored ....

Happy depavali

2008-10-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

hey guys

Today started rather early haha actually kinda usual for depavali
When to JURONG to my dads friends place for breakfast.
After that went to upper thompson to another family friends place.
Came back to pasir ris after that and proceeded to satha's place.
Slacked untill 4 and left to nesh's place and had a good lunch/dinner there
Started drinking wine till 830 pm and sent nesh to interchange cos he was going back to camp.
After that slacked at pasir ris till 11 and left for home.

well thats abt my day.

so till next time i feel like blogging .......

Ethan

2008-10-27T02:30:00.002+08:00

In life many things never always happen your way. In fact they always tend to happen the opposite way.

you expect it to happen this way and it happens that way.
sometimes it does not hurt and most of the time it always hurts,bad

well i guess for me in once again time to pick up my shoes and start walking again
cos i know there aint space for me in your life. It would be the best thing for me to do now
well than again why am i so stupid to make this kind of dissions with my heart and not my mind.
thinking about it would have surely saved me a huge heart ach but its too late now

Falling for you was the best thing that happened to me and finding out that there was another guy interested in you was like a granade without the pin in my hand. hahaha

I am really going after fools gold. haha what was i ever thinking.
And agian back to square one.

super stress week

2008-10-27T02:24:00.002+08:00

hey guys if you have noticed i am actually blogging at a rate of 1 week once.
haha

dunno why this is so but ya ...!!

well this week had a few papers i think i did alrigth.
friday left to malaysia for a short holiday cum business trip with my parents
well everything went on alright i guess. went bowling and clubbing there

nth really fun though. spent most of sunday afternoon sleeping and oh ya

i forgot another thing.
I dyed my hair. its red now ... haha cool
my younger bro looks worse. he bleached is hair and now he looks like a golden monkey
hahaha
well that was his nick name when he was much younger... hairy little boy running around
thats how he got his name.

well that would be all for now

Gods Mercy

2008-10-16T14:26:00.002+08:00

hey guys .... i am back to blogging again ! after 2 weeks !
haha

well on tuesday i went down to TRAFFIC POLICE HQ for my interview
(for those peple that dont know, its cos i met in an accident and i had no license while riding)
So ya, as u can se from the tittle of this post, GOD'S MERCY, something that i did not deserve was givin to me.

As i was saying when i went for my interview, my IO said that i will be charged for both cases
at once.That means that it would be counted as my first offence, so i dun have to go to jail if i can pay the fine !

OMG damn happy lar ....!!!

Wednesday morning was kinda stupid lar. I tot that i start work at 6am so i woke up at 5 and took my shower and got ready for the cab to pick me up. 5:30 came but no call, 6:00 came still no call. Got really sleepy and fell asleep and woke up at 7am. rushed down to work lar. go there check the roster and guess wad ? i start work at 7am lar ! lols

after work met the guys at the chalet and helped to start the fire and stuff. ASH was the DJ/BIRTHDAY BOY. He is damn good ! made everyone enjoy the night.

Around 630pm recived a call from dad. he asked my wheres the bike, i told him i dunno, should be in the carpark wad.OK i will cut to the point, MY BIKE WAS STOLEN ! omg !!!

well thats all for now !
gonna sleep now !!
sweet dreams

happy birthday MUM

2008-10-04T04:10:00.002+08:00

Today was my mums birthday ...!!!

Woke up like super early, cos i was forced to help my cousin
to help paint his new house.
reached his house at 8 am sharp and everyone was still sleeping ...!!!
LOLS
So i being tired also slept. Woke up ard 11 am and went for breakfast.
Proceeded to the new house to start painting.

left ard 6 pm, headed home to wash up for mums birthday dinner.
After dinner met the guys at city plaza. clubbed the nite away.
(FYI)- i did not drink much so i was not even high.
can count the number of glasses i drank with one hand ...!!!(5)

haha.
After the club closed we proceeded back to pasir ris
and here i am posting abt my day !

gonna sleep now
take cares
ETHAN
FAMILY & FRIENDS ARE LOVED

When a person is on your mind

2008-10-03T00:38:00.003+08:00

When will the day be that i could hold your hand and
let you know that i am here to stay.

When will the day be that i could hold you in my arms and
tell you that i will never leave.

When will the day be that i could wipe away your tears and
remind you of the phrase, till death do us apart.

Babe when will be the day that we will be just you and me ?
cause you know just how much you mean to me !

2008-09-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

2008-09-29T00:26:00.004+08:00

i slept almost half the day ....!!! so nth much to blog abt lar ...!! boring person's life !!!
if i could only die of boredom i would but the most that it can only do is torture me ...!!!

lols ... end my pain !! give me smt to do!!

drew smt damn nice sia ...!! will post the pic of it tml ..!!!
i am sure alot of ppl will like it ...!!! haha

thats all!!!

2008-09-27T23:21:00.002+08:00

Hold me in your arms,
Never let me go,
I wanna spend eternity with you

I stand before you girl and give you all i have,
Your love is all i need, girl you'r all i need
My life belongs to you,
You gave your life for me,
Your love is all i need, girl you'r all i need

Hold me in your arms,
Never let me go,
I wanna spend eternity with you
And now that ur near,
Everything is different, everything so different
And girl i know i am not the same, my life you've changed
I wanna be with you, i wanna be with youi

I see you always, and being in your presence is great !

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Today was rather surprising and unexpected ...!!! haha

I was on my way to school and was at pasir ris mrt station, I wanted to buy a pack of ciggs
but was short of 30 cents. Than i saw a friend that i dont quite really know so i tot of trying my luck on getting that 30 cents. when i went up to him, he was talking to an uncle. The uncle introduced himself and starting talking to me than he asked us to go to macs for coffee, since i had time to spare i went. After sitting at the table, he asked me if i was going to eat and i said no.
The uncle than asked me if i had money, i replied NO. He than took out his wallet and out came $50 and he gave it to me ...!! lols !!! random stranger giving me money !! lols !!

than i met xiao wei at the mrt station and she was doing a donation drive and asked me to donate so i did ...!! so kind of me, i know !! haha (for ppl that know me i wont donate one)

than i came back home and did alot of house chores, cleared alot of clothes and sent them to salvation army.

Got ready and went to meet henrietta and shaun. went to tm and watched a movie
quite nice lar ... very touching .... wad real love can do to a person ....!!

haha than on the way home something unexpected happened again, i met venassa on the bus.
In sec sch we hardly talked and well did not know each other well at all ....!! but guess wad
i the bus she smile when she saw me and we started talking .... well dont get the wrong idea ok i am not interested in her or anything but it was a very plesent conversation.

well after that met the guys and played cards awhile and me and leon left... his staying over at my place tonite ... haha cool rite !!
haha

well thats about it.

hann we did not take any pics today !!! lols !! sad !

2008-09-22T23:27:00.005+08:00

I remember, wasn't so long ago We had a one room shack and the livin' was low

And my mama by herself raised me and my bro Wasn't easy, but we did it with the little that go

Worked hard got us off to school every dayAnd kept her eyes on the stars when the skies were gray

Gave us pride to survive, really showed us the wayNow I really understood what she was tryin' to say

She said, "Son there'll be times when the tides are high
And the boat may be rocky, you can cry
Just never give up

You can never give up," uh-uh
In this life you could lead if you only believe
And in order to achieve what you need
You can never give up
You can never give up

And this hope
That keep me holding on
On and on

And this hope
That makes me carry on
On and on

Boom-boom, couldn't have made it alone
I got a wonderful life, two kids on my own
With a strong foundation that was carved in stone
And my mama for the love that made my house a home
Made me wonder some time if this was meant to be
All this for a humble little guy like me
And all I ever really wanted was a family
To teach my kids the same value that she gave to me

She said, Son there'll be times when the tides are high
And the boat may be rocky, you can cry
Just never give up
You can never give up,
uh-uh

In this life you could lead if you only believe
And in order to achieve what you need
You can never give up
You can never give up

And this hope
That keep me holding on
And on
And this hope
That makes me carry on
On and on

We nah turn no stepper, things a go better
Never let yourself be overcome by pressure
Cool yah me Bredda
Have faith insteada
Sit down an watch em all a fight one another
Blaze like fire- nah go retire

God nah sleep and a him an inspire
We fa reach higher
A that him require
Haffa mek a mark before a time expire

And this hope
That keep me holding on
And on
And this hope
That makes me carry on
On and on

There's hope, yeah
Hope keeps it alive, yeah, uh
Hope keeps it alive, yeah, uh
And it strikes an iron, uh
Hope keeps it alive, yeah, yeah
Hope keeps it alive, yeah
Only the strong survive, yeah
Keep it carry on, keep it carry on, yeah
Uh-uhI'll keep it carry on, yeah
I gotta carry on, gotta carry on and be strong
Uh-uh-uh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, uh-uh

And this hope
That keep me holding on
And on
And this hope
That makes me carry on
On and on

2008-09-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

Funny day !!!

Haha stupid problem !!!

Fun time with henrietta as usual !!!

Feelings of love are just unexplianable
They come and go,
Sometimes staying longer than other times
But still even if it goes, its sure to return someday,

Life is all about waiting for the rite time to do certian things
You just have to wait and cease that oppotuinity when it comes
And never let it go, cos it only comes once and never comes again
You only have one shot one moment so get hold of it and never let it go

Love is not life but life is all about love.
Make the best out of it and while it last
Enjoy every second spent with that person and treasure him/her
Take the opportunity to make that person feel and know that they are special

Being love sick is just an excuess to meet up with the person you are in love with
So when a person says that he/she is love sick what he/she really means that they miss you
They wanna see you,hold your hands and want you to know that you are thier world
They wanna know that they are also missed.
They wanna see that look in your eyes that says it all.

2008-09-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

The more i see you the more i notice how much you have changed
and coming back to your older self, The person who i once liked

The more i see you, The more the feelings of affection and love
i have for you grow.

The more i see you,The more i am falling deeper into love

this is when it gets scary ! cos i do not dare to venture into
unknow teritory. I dont have the guts to go through it as i
might end up losing you completly.

I am a person who takes risk, calculated risk ! If i know there is a
high percentage of me losing something great and important to me i would
rather not take that risk, although everyone is telling me to.

"Just take the risk, If u get u get BIG. If you lose, you only lose time"
thats what i ahve been told but i dont agree.
If my feelings and face is going to be on the line i dont think i am willing
to take that risk.
Or for the sake of LOVE should i ????

2008-09-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

woke up like at 1+ i think did not bother to check the time
went to meet henrietta at siglap cos she wanted to collect her certs
after that slacked at temp and i came home ...!!! ya
took tonnes of pics again !!! (becoming a camwhore)
haha!!!

2008-09-17T21:46:00.003+08:00

OMG .... today i spent 3/4 of my day traveling.

left my house at 830 and took MRT to school. slept in the train and woke
up at boon lay, so i bounced back to queenstown.

After school this SMALL LITTLE GIRL suggested to us to take bus back home,
so the 3 of us agreed. my goodness the bus went all over singapore, 1 & 1/2 hour bus ride to serangoon bus station. and from there i had to take another bus to tempines. this bus ride lasted for 45 mins. and i had to take the same bus back to pasir ris and that took another 30 mins.

omg ... thats alot of time spent on traveling !!! and i was sleeping throughout all the bus and train rides.... !!!!

surprisingly i studied for an hour today ...!!! yey

2008-09-16T23:24:00.008+08:00

MAGIC TRICK

TWISTER !!! she was moving too fast

MELTED HEART

lols this was all the pics i managed to upload ... still got more but blogger got abit of problem... i cannot upload anymore !!! lols ... super pissed off lar ...!!!

hey to this special girl who i hold dearly to me, I want you to stop crying for people that do not deserve your tears. You cry for poor people in china also more worth it ok ...!!!

i can understand if you dont wannna share your problems with me but i know when you are feeling down your emotions always take over you !! well i mean that u cry and tend to do stupid things ...!!! i know you ok ...!! dun say you dont ...!!!

cheer up and be happy and always smile .... i can only make you smile awhile and thats just on the outside still the things inside of you i cant really help ... i wished i could bear all your pain for you, i really wished i could.For you to keep on smiling is all up to you ....!!! you are always being thought about ok ...!!! people do care and love you ok ...!!!

2008-09-15T23:39:00.010+08:00

THE GUY THAT MAKES HER SMILE

THE GIRL THAT MAKES HIM LAUGH

met henrietta and cass .... slacked,smoked and slothed our time away

2008-09-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

yesterday nite was fun .....

liverpool won 2-1 against man u !!!
i won $$$
went to changi village to watch the match but all the coffee shops were full and could not get place to sit down. So Chris suggested that we go to the pub to watch. After the match was over we were in the mood for more drinking so we headed down to duxton road and drank somemore
after that onniissa had to go home and he left. The rest of us headed down to Boat quay and met Chris friends there. Drank even more there and around 6+ am we made a move back home.

came home and i remembered i did not have my keys with me and everyone was sleeping
Did not want to wake anyone up so i slept outside my house and woke up around 10+ am and by than my dad was already up. Went into my house and knocked out on my sofa and slept and slept untill like 2pm than i read my msgs from my phone and there was a msg from henrietta which goes like this "Please dun tell me that you are sleeping"
like ok i was out pubbing the whole nite of cos i would be sleeping lar ...!!! hahaha
but well that was when i remembered that i had to meet her. So i like called her and asked her where she was. Thank GOD she was still at J8 and was going to leave soon. So i rushed and bathed and like rushed again to the mrt station and before i could leave the house my dad had a long talk with me ... lols .... and like i was just nodding my head to everything he said ...!!! i had no mood to listen to anything at that point of time lar ...!!!

well met henrietta and went to TM and ate at pizza hut .... Note to self : nvr ask henrietta to choose where to eat the next time .... she will think for 2 hrs and still not come to a conclusion ok ....!!!! haha
but well had a nice dinner and after that we went back to her place there and slacked for like damn long lar ...!!! hahaha just smoking our lifes away ...!!! after that steve came and passed her smt and left ....!!! than we headed to T mart and bought ciggs and headed to her block and sent her back home ... and i made my way back home. met nesh under my block and were taking abt last nite .... lols well that was practically my nite and day life ...!!! hahah

2008-09-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

I know i have not blogged lately well thats cos i really have nth much to say
or rather did not want ppl to know what happened to me.

well last friday i had another accident ... it was rather bad i must say. both hands were bleeding
quite bad and i almost fainted due to the shock of the accident. But thanks be to GOD for saving my life.
My dad picked me up from the highway and rushed me to CGH A&E. after that i came back home and slept like a pig.
both my hands were bandaged up as if my hands were gonna fall apart.
suffered immense pain for like a week. i could not eat and bath on my own.
thanks goes to my dad and 2 younger brothers.Helped me to do almost everything.

well enough of my hurts....
things that made me happy this week

HENRIETTA ANNE KHOO WAN YI
remember that name
cos she's a girl u dun wanna mess with
she a head rippin
neck bitin
flameball spittin
MONSTER

well thats wad i tot so too but in the end

she is just a
freedom lovin
fun likin
joke riddelin
PERSON

well she says that i make her laugh almost everyday
i dunno if thats good or not lar ... maybe she might just explode !!!
haha

but she also said that i am like the nicest guy in the world ...!!!
which i so totally agree with her ...!!!! its so true ok ...!!! haha

Henrietta you know you are loved by people around you.
They do not want you to cry,not even a single drop of tear.
They always want to see you SMILE.

LIANA ELIZABETH YING XUE SAMUEL
a name not to forget

Crossed eyed
sparrow lookin
attitude showin
GRUMLIN

while thats what i tot at first but she is

People caring
heart warming
and full of charactor

wah this girl arh .... although only know me for abt 3 weeks
still call me, msg me and msn me just to check on me .... see if i am still
alive,taking medication or resting .... lols
one hell of a person she is ... get on her good books is all i have to say ....!!!!

welll than
thats about it

signing off
ETHAN

2008-09-02T21:36:00.003+08:00

I am actually crying for a person that i used to dislike ...!!!
for a reformed person he does not deserve wad he got ...
Brother i will be praying for you ok ... we will be there for you ...!!!

the feeling inside of me is just feel disturbing.Its hard to discribe and its aching me all over
causing a whirlwind in my mind.

Take care bro
sure to miss u man ...!!!

What a nice day to start with and a fuked up way to end it

2008-08-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

hey guys so this is how the story of my life carries on....

woke up at 2 am ... went to church
after church went to changi hotel to have lunch as my bro's birthday just passed
after that came back home.
met the guys for awhile

went to meet anne khoo wan yi. Cabbed to compasspoint
firsty is dead
secondly is boring ....!!
but still i went there dun ask why cos i also dunno

met cass at mos burger miss khoo and cass and cass's friend ate
after that had a smoke and went window shopping for awhile ...
than cass and her friend went back to work ....
slacked at sengkang MRT untill my dad called me to come back home for a meeting with my companies partners. so i sent her back and came back home.

signing off
Chocoslut

1 weeks since i blogged !!!

2008-08-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

OMG !!!! its been a week since i blogged ....!!! haha

well let me just update those ppl who read my blog and care abt my life ....

sunday was boring - went to church and came back and stayed home

monday was boring - slacked downstairs and played cards

tuesday almost killed me - had an accident on PIE ...!!!

wednesday gave me heart ach - after school went to workshop to check my bike ...tonnes of damages

thursday was boring - slacked downstairs and played cards

friday was lonely - watched DEATH RACE ALONE

saturday burnt a hole in my wallet - collected my bike from the workshop and paid $120 for the repair works

well thats my whole week in a glance ....!!! haha

well tml meeting birdie for lunch ....
hopefully no more postphones ....!!! haha

lols ...
well thats all

signing off
Chocoslut

2008-08-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

today was family day.

i went to sch and came back home. watched one piece awhile.
my whole family including my cousins went to downtown east and watched mama mia ...!!!

its damn nice lar .... the movie can really bring out all the different kinds of emotions that a person can feel in his life. haha i cried and laughed my ass out during the movie !!! its also very romantic and lovey dubby. its a must watch ok ...!!

Vivo anyone ???

2008-08-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

OMG ..... went to vivo for nth at all lar ....!!!!
wasted like 3 hrs there doing almost nth ....!!!!
2hrs waiting for nesh and satha and 1 hr waiting for his friends !!!
lols ....

now i know how it feels when u have a BIGSIZED pillion !!!
not easy .... sry mohan and nesh for the troubles before ...!!!

went to downtown and ate at nebo cafe ...!!! not bad lar the food
went home at 9 at watched movie with mum nad bros ....
movie just ended so i am blogging now ... after a long time i must say
nth really interesting abt my life lar .... kinda boring ....!! haha

well anyways thats all

NOTE TO SOMEONE :
I AM STILL ALIVE OK .... NOT DEAD....ONLY A PHONE CALL AWAY !!!

Funny World

2008-08-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

Did you know the world is round ....!!
God made it that way cos he knew that there
will be basturds like you out there ....
So many singers have sang songs about KARMA and
wad goes around will come back around when will you
realise that ... ??? you are the dumbest asswipe i have
ever met lar ....!!! and i dun know how i could call you my BROTHER ....!!!
you really sicken me man ....!!! I just hope that you know wads coming your way
cos i aint gonna let you off man ...!!! you are so going down ...!! BIG TIME
if i were you i'd start praying now ....!!!

Had the most f**ked up day for this year ....!!!
i just need to be left alone for awhile and sort my shit out !!
i am filled with so much anger and hate for you that i swear
i had plans to pay for your death ....!!! but after refecting i realised
why stoop to yor level ....!!! waste my time and money on you for wad ...!!!

just remember .... THE WORLD IS ROUND

Hang over

2008-08-10T22:53:00.003+08:00

lols ... woke up at 3pm having a really bad headach ...!!!
ate lunch and met nesh went to pump petrol at mobil.
went to pongol to pick up mohan and came back to pasir ris.
came back home and got ready to go to my uncle's house
had a surprise birthday party for my aunty.came back home a blogged

Wad a NATIONAL day !!!

2008-08-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

first i planned to meet HH than alot of things changed
i tot that i could meet her at town but in the end also nvr ....

lols .... anyway around 430 met nesh and mohan than met liana
took PUBLIC TRANSPORT to town ....!!! reached city hall than
walked to marina square.

Ate dinner at CARL'S Jr. than we took tonnes of pictures
Mohan's girl came after the fireworks and we left from there
walked back to city hall than went to meet my parents at MOS
when i walked in some topless guy turned to me a offered me a condom
saying " hey bro i think u will need THIS tonite .... " and and parents
were just there beside me. And i was like do u see me with my girl tonite ???
haha .... lols

left MOS and went to some indian pub. dad opened a bottle and met my cousins inside
all i can remember after that was nth ....!!got to drunk at i think i made a show but lucky club closed already ...!! lols

NOTE TO SELF : NO MORE DRINKING !

Damn that person

2008-08-08T22:38:00.002+08:00

CCB lar ..... FUCK the damn person who tipped off the police about us lar !
If i know who i sure curse him till he die arh ...!!
i wish he ride bike also arh ... sure kanna accident and die lar ....!!!
motherfucker ....!!! NAH BEI ...!!!
KARMA WILL SURELY HIT YOU BACK I SWEAR

as you can see from above someone tipped off the police abt us riding
the guy sure gonna die one lar .... he just heng mohan nvr kanna for stolen bike arh ...
if not i sure his funneral tomorrow ...!!!

today dammn slack lar ..... woke up late for tution and i rushed down
and managed to study for abt 1 hr .
after that came home and met satha and nesh .

went home and tried to sleep but could not .... borthers kept disturbing me ....
finally nesh called and asked me to go down and slack so i went
went to beng boi's house to collect led lights ....
most likly tml i fixing ... haha ....!!! lols
tp sure gonna stop me soon ....!!! lols
dunno lar ...!!

well thats all .... hope HH can come along with me to watch fireworks
tml ..... should be fun ...!!
1 big group and i wont even know many of them tml ...!!! haha
see how things turn out ...!!!

signing off
CHOCOSLUT

Got my bike today

2008-08-04T23:32:00.001+08:00

hey hey ..... got my bike today,lols
well kinda scary riding from thiong barhu
to pasir ris ....!!! first time riding so long

well anyway bike giving tonnes of problems ...!!!
now dont have to share bike with nesh anymore...!!

met karthik as he will be leaving to india tml ...!!
wish him all the best for his studies ...!!!

p.s Really sry mohan ...!!! did not mean to drop ur bike ...!!
really sry ...!!!
well thats all now can ride with you guys ...!!! haha

question for HH
when u gonna ask me out again ??
haha ...!!!

long time nvr blog

2008-08-03T12:16:00.002+08:00

haha its been two days since i posted

lols .... well on friday i met up with mohan and nesh went for driving and met them up again than went to downtown east again... haha
was not feeling well though... so went home early

on saturday went to school and came home for a short nap than met nesh and mohan went to watch movie at CS with satha and hyqel but i could not get tix so i watched another movie instead(prom night)
boring show ....!!! lols
had a really bad headach
went home early

well today most likly i going to see my bike,
should be getting my own bike soon than can ride anytime ...!!
haha
well more post later on at night

Sry HH

2008-07-31T23:17:00.003+08:00

went to novena today, met up with HH there.
i think she forgot that i said i meeting her there,
she was kinda shocked ...!! AND i am REALLY sry
for making you take the train cos u were shagged ..!!!
Really sry.

met the guys and went to downtown and ate a BK than
played truth or dare with charmine,nesh,lyana and mohan
kinda fun haha
lols

SRY HH

signing off
CHOCOSLUT

another boring day

2008-07-30T20:07:00.004+08:00

went to sch.... studied and went back home !
met up with satha and hyqel than slacked at satha's house
nesh and mohan came and we were dancing ard the house to bangarah songs
haha lols .... and if that was not enough nesh and mohan started grinding each other ...!!!
wad a sight for sore eyes ...!!! lols ...!!

and again i shaved my head .... not bald but crew cut ...!! for those tat dunno wad that means ....!!(i look like NS man)

Driving On The Road

2008-07-29T22:49:00.002+08:00

Had school in the morning ...!!! damn fuked up sia ... must wake up damn early lar ...!!!!
Still after school waited at sengang for like 1 and a half hours before by driving lesson started ...!!
and i was ALONE ...!!!

But ok lar ... was talking to H.H so managed to pass time really fast ...!! thks birdie !!!
during driving the instructor said i have improved alot and that i am getting better only need to practice down gear more and look futher next time ...!! so i am satisfied ...!!

signing off
CHOCOSLUT

Studying In Da Morning ??? belivable ???

2008-07-28T21:59:00.004+08:00

Well started the day with RAJ waking me up and asking me to study with him.
Haha i know sounds funny rite ... Ethan studying in the morning !!! lols
but nvr study lar ended up playing computer games than went to elias mall to play DOTA

Than we went to study under my block.1hr past still study, 2 hr pass got hungry,RAJ went to buy food than saw NESH than we all took our bikes and went to pongol.Raced my ass off and almost died ...!! haha

H.H actually went to work in the morning today ...!!! i thought that she would not but she did ...!!! lols .. !! - smile more often ok ....!!!

signing off
CHOCOSLUT

Wow my first post

2008-07-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

Haha well to those people who read my blog thanks.
its nothing much just about things that happened to me in my life.
it would be boring. haha

well today woke up late. went for breakfast with family than took bike to elias green with satha and friends.than met up with hann, went to watch HELLBOY II, was really funny lar.

Slacked with her at t-mart than sent her back home than came back home and created this blog.

signing off
CHOCOSLUT