What a strange illusion it is to suppose that beauty is goodness.

Well finally after damn long blogging again.
I just dont know why but i felt like typing shit out.
Cant seem to do well in RP, dont know wad the hell i am good in anyways ???
maybe nth rite !!

Today was kinda boring as always. did not do much.
same routine everyday, school home and the same again the next day.
Life is damn mono tone.

needs a better DJ to mix-up my life.
Where is DJ Genesis when you need him huh ??
lols - probably drunk behind the set !!! hahaha


you see i really talk shit and crap here !! hahahaha
alrites gonna sleep soon !!
have fun and enjoy the rest of the nite

suffering Alone

i am left here alone to cry all alone to myself .... i dont really know how i can bother ti even listen to myself .... i am starting to hate myself more and more now a days.

i dont know if its because of you or not but it really hurts!
i dont know what i am going through now .... love perhaps ??
i cant seem to forget all the things that have happened ...
yes i was angry ... but not at you .... its cos i was the one who created such a sitiuation
now i feel like shit ....
not being able to see you or hear ur voice makes me go kuku .... hahaha
now i know its time to forget everything .... me and u will never be possible ... at all !!

now i am just too down to write anymore .... running out of tissues soon !! lols

CRYBABY !

lols had to remoive the pic that was here ... hahaha

dresses

fucked up day

well my day stared out quite well ... helpped a friend buy a buy ... got all the dealings done !!
after that went to katong for left 4 dead ...!! played till 1230 i think ...lols
had a fun time ....
after that met nesh at 52. drank beer and than proceeded to pasir ris town park .... from theer went to some carpark near downtown east there which is connected to pasir ris park ....
drank somemore ....

cos of me the whole group had a fucking big misunderstanding ...
when i came home i found out that my parents had a fucking fight ... like wtf !!
i am now like fucking pissed off ...
my life is really like a fucking drama series playing on a 24hr channel ...
i am slowly going crazy .... just waiting for the time that i snap ..
than i wonder what will happen to me ... ??
pls come for my funneral ok !!
lols hhahaha
and i want to be barried with a bottle of louis the 13 !!! tell my dad and it will happen ... if he does not belive show him this blog post !!
hahaha
lols

lets see what happens when i wake up later on huh ...!! lols
well its a good morning to u guys and good nite to me ...!!! hahaha
sayunara !!



EthaN

dead blog

Again i find my blog dead .... !!

well lifes been fun some days and boring on others ...
anyways schools gonna start soon !! cant wait !!
really, 1 and a half years of not doing anything i can die .... lols

the only things keeping me alive is my music and well some of my friends !
speaking of friends i feel that things have gone from good to bad to worst ..
things are not the same anymore ....
i guess we are back to the same old people again ...
time tells many things abt everyone ... its just if you want to listen or not


but well i cant be bothered about all of this cos i dun need you guys to live nor do u need me to live
but still we do need each other when in need of companionship.To lend a shoulder to cry on, spend time laughing, joking and such !!

well thats all i have for now ....
EthaN

All my life i have prayed for someone like you and i thank god that i finally found you.
And i hope that you feel the same way too. Yes i pray that you will love me too !!

well i guess this song applies to me but the sad part is that it will never happen.
Why is that all the girls that i like never seem to share the same feelings as i do ??

Am i cursed or wad ?? lols is there something wrong with me ??






A Rose With Velvet Petels, A Diamond Bud And A Golden Stalk, Something So Valueble And Rare

drowning in sadness

fuck .... i am sliwly losing myself ! dunno wad i have been doing the past few days !

my life is getting from bad to worst.
i just found out that my mums got some blood disorder
although she looks fine on the outside i know that she really is not

something happened last nite which i admitt was my fault.
u are right. i am an idiot.
can never do anything right.
i am slowly losing the people that i really love
wad is happening ??

now i just feel like running away from my problems again